Monday, December 19, 2005

Spiritual band-aid

This week I was sliced by the words of another - not the cut of a reckless sword , but rather the surgeon's knife carefully placed to remove the unwanted tissue.
Let me tell the story- I had about 4 hours sleep the night before because I was trying to get papers and such done for the last week of school. I go into my Greek class, slide into my chair next to my friend Toph and start shooting the breeze. My Prof comes by and drops off my paper - one that I turned in about a month ago. I look at the grade - C minus...But it is passing! So I rejoice! This class has been kicking my butt and I have been claiming "D is for Diploma" for the entire semester! So, that is not what knocked the wind out of me....As I sat in class, I noticed that the back of my paper had a comment on it - so I grabbed the paper out of my bag and started to read - here are the highlights: "this paper was frustrating to read, not because it was not well-written but because of the clear lack of attention to exegesis. God has obviously gifted you in communication - you communicate your ideas clearly and your argument flows easily - but, you have not done any exegesis. Do you not think that if God has gifted you in communicating ideas that you could worship Him by showing honor to His word in exegesis?" OUCH! I mean, the scalpel went in quickly and deeply - removing the pride that placed me above exegesis of the text! I mean, think about it - here I turned in a paper acting like my ideas were better than the Bible's! OUCH! I felt as if I were squished to the size of an inchworm - and that everyone around me saw me for that disgusting person that I am. I knew the meaning of Heb 4 when it talks about being open and laid bear before the Lord - I was naked and fully ashamed at my lack of ability to even argue for myself. I so appreciated the grader's comment because it was masterfully crafted and I had no way to defend myself! WOW! How I do appreciate brothers in Christ! Anyway - I repented and asked my friends to keep me accountable in doing my work as an act of worship -not rushing through it to finish school - but applying myself to learn as much as I can. To worship the almighty God as I do the mundane task of writing papers and reading! It is amazing that God allows us to worship Him in the everyday tasks of life - it is only because of the incarnation that this is possible. It is only because God became man that the activities that we do as "man" can be made holy and can be acts of worship. I am learning more and more that the incarnation is crucial to my theology - it is because "God became man that man can become like God" - I pray that I will use this "amputation" for His glory -that I will strive to worship Him in my daily activities!

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